Monday, May 25, 2015

on this place of peace: the letter link up

Welcome to you, to you and to your words today. 

The Letter Link-up | Mr. Thomas & Me

This letter is part of The Letter Link-Up. They are written to remember mundane moments that would otherwise slip away, to hold tight to him, and to remember how life looks right now at this very moment with the chance to shed light on your heart. 

While my letters are documenting moments within our marriage before children for our children, you are allowed to write your letter to anyone, on anything with the prompt being simply a loose and suggestive starting point. 
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Dear Jason,

We were once in a bible study where the topic was drudgery. Each week we tackled another way life can drag, heavy and exhausting. Jobs, family, church, money piled up on the cart of living, weighing down our souls. We were newlyweds and heard the conversation, but we were opposed to such rigorous routines. We sat and thought "maybe one day" in wistful, newlywed ways. 

I've always been a girl who has to hide her eye roll when people say the word routine. I think of drudgery when they say it. I loathe the idea of mundane days rolling into one another over and over again. I hear how days have structure and how weeks blend into one another because it's about doing the same thing over and over again and want to die a little bit inside. I hate thinking of daily life as drudgery and yet, it's so simple to feel that way. 

While we were in Utah I heard you talking to your brother. You were telling him about our morning routine. I heard the word and my soul cringed. I was surprised to hear that we're old now, no longer newlyweds, and settled into some daily rhythm. I wanted to laugh and say you were lying, but you hit it head on.

You said I run before the sun, then I play the role of your alarm clock. You said you wake every morning to me bursting into the room high on adrenaline and caffeine. You talked about how we chat as we prepare for our days, often covering the news report I get in my email at some obscene morning hour, then you load up for another morning commute after you kiss me good-bye. I holler "drive safe!" as you head out the door; some days you tell me it's National Risky-Driving Day and I laugh at the predictability of our life together.

I heard the way you talked about our routine to your brother. And I knew you'd got it right.

Instead of feeling sad, begrudged and angry at the boring mundane place that this settled, married routine can be, I found a fondness at the way you described our days. You covered the ritual and routine of our mornings while my soul smiled a radiant, thankful sort of grin. We sat on the wood floor of their living room -far away from home and our dying lawn- and all I wanted was to burrow down into the cozy blankets of our life and feel the warmth envelope me. I wished to be home in our blue-walled bedroom and close my eyes to let the peaceful rhythm of our life to cocoon us.

I've never thought those early moments between sleeping and waking and working as our routine. They are comfort, a threshold, blessed bits of peace before business as usual. As our lives change, our routines alter, our roles transform, may we seek out our place of peace.

Any routine is beloved with you,
Amber
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For June's link-up: 
Monday, June 22nd

The topic: 

A Lesson You've Taught Me
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And without further fuss, the links for May:

12 comments:

  1. This is so special - something so simple and mundane made into something so special and beautiful. I am also slightly jealous of your married routine - it is very different to our parent routine x

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  2. Love love love. The sweetness is good to my soul, down to my toes.

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  3. Sometimes routine is a blessing. It reminds us that everything is ok and good- we're comfortable doing the same thing with the same person because we ENJOY doing the same thing with the same person. I used to dread routine and being a "boring adult", but now I look forward to dinner at the dining room table and crawling in bed with the dogs and watching Jimmy Fallon as we fall asleep. I loved your letter! :)

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  4. I love how you have taken such a boring topic such as routine and made it into something so beautiful and crave-worthy!

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  5. You guys are so precious. I can't even handle it.

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  6. Melissa McMurchyMay 26, 2015 at 11:08 AM

    I absolutely love this post. I feel the same way and then there are days that I completely fall in love with our "routines" all over again. I think it shows us how life changes and we should appreciate, learn, and grow from them! Thanks for hosting!!

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  7. Oh girl. I adore you. :) Some days I think about what the parenting routine will look like compared to the married routine... How things will change and redefine themselves in the face of mini-Thomases. :)

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  8. I have found that I crave the comfort of what's routine on the days that feel the most insane or uncontrollable (or just plain draining). I realize that I'd do anything to skip to dinner at home and evenings sitting on the couch watching WHATEVER the heck Jason wants so long as I can sit next to him! :)

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  9. Oh girl, your words always encourage me right to my core.

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  10. Why do I ALWAYS want to say NO YOU ARE to you?


    But really, NO YOU ARE.

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  11. YES. I have come to notice all the places where routine exists in our lives lately... And I find myself always surprised by the parts of it that I love the most because they seem to be the most mundane or unimportant.

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