If we were on a coffee date, I'd confess I've been trying to be kinder to myself. Doubt and Guilt are loud voices in my life. They write bold, mean things on my soul and I read them over and over again. It's exhausting. I've been trying to be intentional in silencing those lies and focusing on truth. Truth be told: both doubt and guilt are about control. As much I want to be in charge of everything in all of the land, I am not.
If we were on a coffee date, I'd tell you about this curling wand and this heat protection. My favorite waves turn out so much better with these two tools on my counter. The wand is so light and gets so hot but doesn't burn my hair or give it the hot tool smell. I know the price tag is steep, but LOTS of bloggers have promos where you can buy the wand for $40. Search Nume Curling Wand in Google and see what you can find.
If we were on a coffee date, I'd ask where your energy is going these days. I've realized I tend to subscribe to the idea that life is made for the hustle and it makes me frantic. So, I'm trying to slow down a bit, give myself three things to conquer in a day, and reward myself for good work. It's easy to live tired, thankless lives, but to what end does this bring us? We weren't made to live this frenetic way.
If we were on a coffee date, I'd be wearing these sandals. I bought them in both colors because I'm a sucker for the over the toe strap (and it's detail) and fringe. I might just wear them with everything... Like the boyfriend jeans they've been paired with today or the dress I rocked them with yesterday or the jean shorts they're going to accent tomorrow. Literally, everything.
If we were on a coffee date, I'd prod you for tips on making change kind. I'm not sure why I'm resistant to it, but I am. So, I'm trying to sweeten it, to make it kind, and bring it in like a close friend. I don't want change to be my stumbling block, but instead be an important and loved part of my life. I want to be a person who can embrace what was and what is to come. I want to know that I'm flexible and willing, rather than frustrated and bitter. But, how?
If we were on a coffee date, I've been really focused on the way His record is faithful and it's what defines my future. Earlier this month a song at church sang these words, "I will look back and see that you are faithful. I'll look ahead and believe that you are able." (Turns out the song is by Elevation Worship who I mentioned in my last coffee date post.) Then I read Psalm 52 earlier this month and verse 9 has just stuck with me.
"For what you have done I will always praise youI'd tell you the truth of this is convicting me. If dementia has taught me only one thing, it is His faithfulness. Sometimes my soul would rather faint than remember His goodness, but I'm trying.
in the presence of your faithful people.
And I will hope in your name,
for your name is good."
If we were on a coffee date, I'd encourage you to write yourself letters. Buy yourself a journal and just write to you. Dear you and Love, me are powerful things. It holds your feelings and your moments and there emerges themes and thoughts you never even knew you had.