Monday, March 16, 2015

the dozenth coffee date



If we were on a coffee date, I'd offer you a wheat bran muffin drizzled with honey and a homemade latte. I'd have a dozen more muffins where that one came from, which is good, because we'd eat them with smiles on our face.

If we were on a coffee date, I'd introduce you to NPR's book concierge. I'd say I want to read all the books, all the time and this just makes it delightful.

If we were on a coffee date, I'd brag about butchering my own chicken wings. I know, not a big deal, except it totally is because I've never before butchered anything but those poor animals we dissected in middle school science class and mostly then I just watched. Yes, I chopped off the wing tip and separated the flat from the drumette and I felt like Anne Burrell.

If we were on a coffee date, I'd tell you I'm working on self-awareness. It sounds so new-age, spiritual, and that's not what I mean, but it is. I'm working on being honest with myself, like that I love writing in natural light and, so, I moved the furniture around in our office to make this possible and now I won't write anywhere else. I struggle with all emotions coming out as snark and so I know my next task to conquer.

If we were on a coffee date, I'd sing a little happy song about being so close. So damn close. You see, I wrote that manuscript in November and then realized it was a mess and so basically redid the whole entire thing in February and March. I almost quit a couple times because I tried to tell myself I couldn't, but I could and I have and I'm almost done with Draft One.

If we were on a coffee date, I'd ask you if you prefer jasmine or plain white rice. I'd tell you jasmine always wins because it's sticky and delicious. I'd ask you if you've ever cooked it in equal parts water and coconut milk and made sticky rice. I'd hope you say yes because you deserve such a treat, but, if for some reason, you said no, I'd whip some up right away.

If we were on a coffee date, I'd pump my fist in the air and the cold never bothered me anyway. I'd say by cold I mean snow and that my dusty skis are getting polished up and rode down the mountains for the week next week and this is the best birthday present a girl could ever enjoy.

If we were on a coffee date, I'd savor this time with you. Lately I've felt more emotionally aware and available. I'd want to hear everything from you because I need your words. I've not always been a great listener, -in fact, I'm still not- but I'd practice and you'd indulge me with words on words on words.

26 comments:

  1. YAY on being almost done with draft one! I'm currently working on the second part of my manuscript (it's divided into three parts) and I'm slowly plowing through it. Hopefully today I'll get some major headway. Or at least one chapter done. And I'm all for self-awareness. I think it's important for us to figure out how God makes us "tick" and how we're wired so we can start to figure out where we need to improve and the talents he gave us. And I tend to be pretty snarky too.

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  2. I did a coffee date today too! Just felt right :)

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  3. so happy to hear you're working on self-awareness because i am too! i think i'm often in tune with a lot of the feelings i have floating inside of me but less in tune with being present in my life.


    also i'll take a few of those muffin and now i'll need to try jasmine rice made that way!

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  4. I'm in need of one of your lattes, lately.

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  5. I'm so glad that you mentioned the book concierge on Twitter last week! It's one of my new faves.

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  6. I had never heard of NPR's Book Concierge and now I'm SO thankful you pointed me to it. Thanks, friend!

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  7. So sweet and wonderful! Just discovering your blog and you're making me want to be fast friends! xx

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  8. I'm with you on being so close. SO CLOSE. I am going into the summer with a full first draft, come hell or high water.

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  9. The way that you write made me feel like we were sitting down for coffee and I don't even like coffee. Surely they serve hot cocoa there. I love what you said about natural light. If I could work outside or right by a window all day that was letting the sun shine in, life would be 10x better. No doubt about it.

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  10. I would definitely love to share those muffins with you and talk about how absolutely awesome it is that you are nearly done with Draft One. That's incredible news! Also, kudos for the butchering because I can never understand how people know what they're doing with all that. Glad to hear there are some lovely things in your life right now :)

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  11. I so hoped you were about to sing "Let It Go" to us all in blog form when you said the cold never bothered you anyway. Also, if we were on a coffee date? I'd apologize for being a crappy friend and missing all your posts this week.

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  12. Coffee dates are such a wonderful way to enjoy the day -- especially with a good friend! I really should work on my self-awareness as well. I tend to be rather snarky on occasion too, but I have been working on being more positive throughout the day. I love your natural light to write idea!

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  13. Girl, I hear you. Some days it moves and flows and just happens so sort of naturally. And then there's days like I've had the last few days where it just won't move. Not even a little bit. And that's so hard because COME ON. :) I guess the ups and downs are all part of this process but oh how I'd love just some ups and that's it! :)

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  14. It's just a coffee date kind of day! :)

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  15. girl, isn't it crazy when you start paying attention to yourself? i'm amazed at the little things i notice that i just hadn't even realized in my last 25 years! :)

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  16. girl isn't it the best? i mean not that i ever needed more books to read because #overflowing but IT'S THE BEST.

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  17. i love it. i have found that it's more diverse and interesting than anything that amazon or goodreads is going to pick for me! :)

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  18. well WELCOME! so glad you stopped by and yes PLEASE stay a while! :)

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  19. doesn't it sort of hurt? like you're so close but then that closeness can make the little pieces that are left feel SO FAR. i'm itching to do another entire rewrite again... and i'm trying (desperately) to convince myself not to. :)

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  20. this is the sweetest thing ever. i realize i love to read beautiful words but that sometimes they feel so unapproachable and, well, that doesn't bring them into my heart forever and always.... so, you just made my little morning! :)

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  21. girl, YouTube made me a butcher! :) well, only chicken wings and i'm not sure i could go any further than that BUT i did it and that's all that matters. :)

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  22. shut up with this crappy friend bullhonky.

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  23. girl, i don't know what made me decide to start paying attention to my feelings and my process, but it's been eye opening. honestly, sometimes i realize i react to things just for the sake of reaction and, well, not because of any "feeling" i have and that's lame... so, FIX IT. :)

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  24. I know exactly what you mean when you mention reacting to things just for the sake of reacting -- I have been known to do that. However, being aware of that is a great thing! It enables you to fix it :D

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  25. That's so great that you're almost done with draft one! I'm still working on my first manuscript & it's daunting and scary but it's what I want so it's slow, but it's steady!

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