Wednesday, August 20, 2014

to love and to cherish [a marriage letter]

Jason, 

You got mad at me the other morning. I went running late on a Sunday -too late to be home before you awoke, too early to say bye before I left. I scared you with my absence, without a note for you, without my phone on me. You didn't know where I was, how long I'd been gone, when I'd be back. You were irked and I was wrong. We didn't talk it out, just let it go, but I think about how you were upset and take comfort in the fact that you were scared. Fear means you care, means you cherish me. 

Most mornings I run or hit the gym while you slumber a little longer -being as beautiful as you are doesn't happen without some good sleep. Most mornings I'm up and at 'em, full of caffeine and rushing in to shower while you soak in just a few more moments wrapped in our striped sheets. Your eyes closed, your breathing steady, your mind on that tipping point of sleep begs me to soak you in. Sometimes I stare at you for a moment or two, you unaware the way I'm selfishly trying to remember you knowing one day, hopefully far, far away, we won't be together. Cherishing you, that's what I'm trying to do. 

Then there's those special mornings, the ones where we take it slow, we sit at the table and sip frothy cups of coffee, inhale chocolate-peanut butter chip pancakes doused in maple syrup, talking about our dreams and the little bits of book we consumed before bed last night. Those mornings won't last forever, I know that deep within my soul, so I'm pausing to cherish them. And to cherish you as you are right now. You are mine without the demands or distraction of kids, or insane schedules, or busy-ness. 

I cherish you more than any boot or shoe in our closet, more than that fluffy wedding dress I wore that one time, more than every hair on Hazel's little head and body and tail. 

Knowing this won't last forever, reminds me how much I adore you right in this moment

Yours truly and wholly,
Amber
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These letters are the brainchild of Amber C. Haines and her husband, Seth. While they take a break from writing for the summer, I'm choosing to continue on my own. I write to remember mundane moments that would otherwise slip away, to hold tight to him, and to remember how life looks right now at this very moment, plus the chance for these letters to shed light on our marriage before children for our children because they won't know us as newlyweds otherwise.

18 comments:

  1. Your letter is beautiful, it brought tears to my eyes!

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  2. I absolutely love this! I can just picture what that moment was like for Jason and how you felt when you returned home to find him worried. You're right -- worry means love. And it's never a bad thing to be loved!

    -Kate
    www.theflorkens.com

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  3. Amber why do you have to go and make me cry at 720 on a Wednesday morning??? This is SO beautiful.

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  4. This is so beautiful. Thanks for reminding me to slow down and appreciate the small moments -- because, yes, as much as I want them to last forever, I know that one day they won't be here anymore.

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  5. These letters are an absolutely wonderful idea. Keep it up.

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  6. This is both beautiful and convicting. I need to better appreciate the little moments with my husband right now. Thank you for sharing. :)

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  7. I love these so much. What a beautiful way to keep memories!

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  8. Your writing blows me away each and every time. I just continue to love this idea of marriage letters so much!

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  9. you are so pure.
    I love this.
    I hope he reads these.

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  10. Love this Amber! :)
    I agree about cherishing this little tiny moments!

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  11. This letter is absolutely beautiful! I absolutely love this idea ♥

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  12. You write so beautifully friend - and your mornings kinda made me jealous as those mornings are a distant memory at the moment (with two demanding little poppets!) But we will get them back... one day x

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  13. Oh, and I'm going to write a letter to my hubs now too! Thanks for the inspiration x

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  14. I love love love this. You and Mr. T are so darn adorable and what a great post idea :-)

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  15. Wow this is so beautiful. This sounds a lot like my husband and I's morning. We are super newlyweds and don't have much marriage experience, but the love within marriage has been awesome so far. I love that you write about your faith on your blog too. My blog is new, but we seem very similar! I'd love to talk to you more about faith and marriage and blogging sometime! :)

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