Thursday, March 6, 2014

Talking Lenten Talk.

For me, a never-been-Catholic-Christian, Lent is a period of religious indulgence. And for those 40 days, I could not wait. I had big plans of rising early, spending time in His word first thing, starting my day the way all the good girl's do.

Then, Jason and I got to talking. I shared my plans with him. 
And he said, "I don't think it's a good idea." 
Cue my fleshy sin-nature. 
"WHAT? It's seeking God how can it be bad!?! Devil get behind me." (I wasn't that dramatic I swear)
I was pissed. How could he be anything but supportive?

He said, "I don't think it's a good idea because it'll take away from the bit of time we get to spend together in the evenings. The time where I sit beside you and enjoy the way you read the bible, write prayers and bible verses down, then spew out your findings to me."

And, instead of aww-ing and melting a bit, I got mad. I had plans. He's supposed to support them -especially when they include God. IT WAS THE NIGHT BEFORE LENT FOR GOODNESS SAKE. 

Then, God reminded me that Lent is about giving something up. And, I think, for me, giving up is dying to myself. If spending time together in the evenings is what Jason loves, if he enjoys that bible studying, Spirit enjoying time, who am I to ask him to do without? 

So, I'm not getting up any earlier for Lent. Chances are I'll be doing the opposite, staying up later, and sharing in God's goodness with Mr. T. Who better to indulge with than the man God made for me? 

Time to change the Lenten game plan: 
I'm dying to myself for the next 39 days just as Jesus died for me days before Easter. 

I'm learning that I'm less important than I think and going to spend Lent trying to put that thought into action. I know that others need to have their lives poured into, their hearts encouraged, their plates filled. And I am thrilled to know God will use me to do so simply because I'm opening that door to Him.

Also, I thought about giving up bad words. Then I said shit, asshole, and damn it in three seconds flat. I also used pissed in this post. Anyway, I'm going to work on my verging-on-a-sailor's-mouth, but I surely can't promise perfection.

20 comments:

  1. You two really make my heart melt! Im giving up caffeine (man I miss sweet tea already) and devoting the first part of my mornings to reading and prayer

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  2. Regardless of the time of year or reason, I think being more giving of ourselves, especially to our significant others, is a great plan. It's something I definitely have to work on and I will admit that I am the first to tell my husband "look what I did FOR YOU when I really wanted to do THIS for me." I should just do it cheerfully and without comment, but what can I say... I'm working on it!

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  3. hahaha I thought about giving up coffee... but I'm not the greatest person without it. And I work night shift sometimes.. and I'm pretty sure I'd be cursing like a sailor without it too!

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  4. UHM, where can I find my own Mr. T???

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  5. Giving up, taking up, whatever it is, make sure it's important to you and yours. That's the main goal: reflection. I think Lent is suppose to be about a time where we take a moment to realize what's going on and what's important in life.

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  6. i love this. i actually came to a realization yesterday as well, that i tend to be the know-it-all in my marriage (shocker, right?), and so i'm going to be working to listen more to what my husband has to say, and actually take his opinions into serious consideration. and i am going to struggle so hard at it. so this is so parallel.

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  7. Aw, that's really sweet that he didn't want to give up that time together. I normally do give up something, or try to do something to help me get closer to God, but this year … I just couldn't convince myself to put mental energy into anything more than I already am. (Grad school/job searching is eating us alive.) But I hope to spend more time in prayer than I normally do, even if it's not an official "resolution."

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  8. You seriously amazing me on the REG…love this post! And what an amazing hubby you have. Wish you weren't 9 trillion miles away! We'd be really IRL friends! lol

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  9. Wow, this is absolutely beautiful! I love seeing what God's doing in the lives of other bloggers! :-)

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  10. I had to put "be badass everyday" on a print and even posted it in IG and felt rebellious! Hahaha! ;) I almost tweeted you that you need a print that says that! Also, I could totally relate to getting frustrated when our husbands aren't on board with our brilliant plans, but I love when you get the revelation that his point is completely valid! I like your new lent commitment...I never declare anything but this is a good one to get in the regular habit of!

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  11. Girl. Badass is my one of my very favorite words.


    I can't even begin to tell you how humbling it was to be so upset and entitled to my opinion only to realize that God isn't asking me to do Lent in a way that's all about me but in a way that's all about Him. And, that way includes Jason and I taking that time together. But, really? Why can't I always be right?

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  12. We would be the two best friends anybody's ever had. Really, we would. And, you wouldn't have to live in the snow anymore (because I would die as soon as it dropped below 35 degrees).

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  13. And I believe that God is so happy you realized life is so full already that adding more is overwhelming. I think we're told to just do it in church so often that there's no space for lines to be drawn and buffers to be made. I'm trying to be more intentional in thinking on Him and talking with Him... It's not an easy task for me.

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  14. You are preaching to the choir here. I love to be the boss and then when Jason questions my thought process I get all up in arms about it. ALL. UP. IN. ARMS. Needless to say, I need grace and patience.

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  15. Reflection. Yes girl, yes. And it's something that I can do so well until someone else (aka: Jason) is helping me reflect even in the most loving of ways. :)

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  16. I'd say you could have his brother, but he'd probably be mad at me for setting him up. :)

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  17. Oh. Coffee. Holy. No. Especially over the night shift. I'd be a HOT mess plus some.

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  18. Yes. Yes. and Yes. Giving up of ourselves is so hard and then to feel unappreciated in those choices is THE WORST. I want to give of myself and then have Jason say, you are so awesome to do that. And when he doesn't, I make sure he knows. :)

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  19. Oh caffeine. You are a hero doing that girl. I'm not so much into the caffeine part of coffee as much as I just plain love the taste of the stuff. How is the morning devotion going? I didn't want to do mine before bed last night, but then I did and it was wonderful. :)

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