Wednesday, March 12, 2014

about this i care.

Last week for the #sayyesproject Instagram challenge the prompt was "about this I care". And, I went to bed the night before the prompted day nervous about what to post. I wanted to be funny, post about shoes or our new lawn or our Roomba (which happens to be a winner ya'll). But, I'd be downplaying something.

I'd be downplaying the way I've really come to care for myself lately.

And by care, I mean love. I'd be downplaying the way I love myself lately.

So, I took a picture of myself. In my bathroom mirror where I spend my mornings getting ready and my nights undoing all that work. And, I smiled a real smile at that woman in the mirror who I love in new and deep ways.

It's not that I haven't always loved myself. I have -mostly. But lately, when I look in the mirror I see something beautiful. Not in the #selfie, America's Next Top Model, Hot-or-Not way, but in the I-am-doing-this-life-thing-justice way.

You guys, I'm going to be 25 and, for the first time in my two and a half decades, I realize I've got things to show for it. 

I've got a husband who I would step on a grenade for (That's drama, but it's his favorite way for me to tell him how ridiculously I love him). I've got two brothers who are my main men, my wing men, my trouble makers. I've got a partner in crime who truly is the best as concurred by my husband and family. I've got a dog who's my shadow and woman's best friend. I've got a job that is comfortable and home, but challenging and tiring. I've got health and a body that's preparing to run its second marathon.  I've got tattoos to commemorate the God and family I love. I've got a faith that's honest and true while tough and wrestling.

You guys, I'm going to be 25 and, for the first time in my two and a half decades, I love myself. 

I've faced terror and loss. I've defeated illness and fear. I've adventured and made memories. I've decided on my own wonders of the world and seek them daily. I've kissed and hugged and loved in ways unimaginable. I've opened my heart and had it filled and broken. I've taken risks in relationships and in faith only to be rewarded. I've learned I'm valuable to others and found their value to me. I've broken bones and undergone surgery. I've lost teeth and bit finger nails. I've hurt and I've healed.

I'm going to be 25 and, for the first time in my two and a half decades, I'm in love with myself. 

39 comments:

  1. Brooks - The Handey WayMarch 12, 2014 at 6:12 AM

    This made my heart smile so big. You have so much to love about yourself, and I'm so glad you're celebrating it!

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  2. YES. THIS IS AMAZING. Realizing this makes you wise beyond your years my dear.

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  3. What's not to love my dear?! :-) xo

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  4. You are absolutely perfect my dear. Always, always so encouraging. So thankful for you!

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  5. I love this post just as much as I love you - so proud of you girl, you have so much to love!
    I love the friend I have in you x

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  6. This is perfect! I wish we could all learn to love ourselves the way you love you! :)

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  7. This is wonderful- I"m only 21, but I can see myself loving myself a little more and more each day... we are like fine wine, getting better with time!! xo

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  8. This is truly an amazing post! You're an amazing human being!

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  9. This is such an amazing self-love post! It's so inspiring. If only we can help everyone see their true beauty, they can learn to love and accept themselves just as you do!

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  10. This is such a beautiful post. You have so much to love about yourself and your life! I hope more people will be able to fall in love with themselves.

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  11. You know, after "meeting" you through all your posts for the past six months, I've gotten to see such a brilliant minded woman who has the heart the size of Texas. You're such an amazing person, and Jason is a lucky man to have you by his side. Hell, I'm in love with ya!!! Happy birthday, kiddo.

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  12. You're ahead of the game in realizing this! :)

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  13. Good for you! It is so hard, I think especially in this day and age, to come to a place where a woman can say she truly loves herself. I am 25 and just getting to that point. This was a powerful post and I hope the love you have for yourself only grows stronger with time!!

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  14. :-) It always makes me happy to hear people loving on themselves!!! :-)

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  15. Oh Brooks. Thank you. I'm learning to embrace myself little by little and hoping to inspire others to do the same!

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  16. This is the BEST thing I've ever heard. Lately a lot of the women in my life who are five and ten years older than me have made it a point to say how sad life is after 25 and how they wish they'd loved themselves more then because now they JUST can't. And, that's terribly sad because I like to think, much like wine, I'll only get finer with time!

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  17. Oh Anne, so happy to have you! Casey's such a doll and I'm lucky to know her sweet self… And now to know you too!

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  18. Falling in love as the years pass by --> my plan precisely.

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  19. XO. XO. So much love in so many ways. And it's become so fulfilling. :)

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  20. You, my dear. Oh you. <3 How I love thee.

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  21. It's a process and, surely, a journey that I'm going to have ups and downs on, but here's to a winning moment!

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  22. Yes, just like fine wine! (None of the two buck chuck).


    You're a beautiful soul… And your IG today proved it!

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  23. <3 thank you Jamie. Just a little emotion weighing on the heart today and hoping to inspire in others!

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  24. I believe starting the conversation is the PERFECT way to inspire love and acceptance of ourselves in others! Let's do this Jasam! :)

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  25. Oh Lena. How I adore you. And being told I've got a heart the size of Texas might just be the greatest compliment I ever did receive. Ever.

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  26. So much love for your beautiful, God-loving soul! Having such encouragement from you feeds my soul in ways indescribable my dear.

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  27. It makes me happy to have received such love in return! <3

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  28. It's so hard and surely a daily battle, but also such a wonderful experience to continue to have with myself and those dearest to me… Little did I know that it would also create such a beautiful community around me online as well!

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  29. I'm hoping in seeing people love themselves sincerely and honestly would inspire the same in others… Certainly not a simple or easy task, but something we can manage little by little!

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  30. Love you more sweet girl x

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  31. I am about to be 25 as well so I really related to this post! Reading it made me think, I love myself too!

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  32. :) Adoration. That's such an honor. It's not a compliment, my friend, it's a fact. Just telling the truth.

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  33. YOU will. people forget that only THEY have the power to make a change and inject some positivity in their lives. it's never too late to be happy; you just have to want to put in the effort to make changes that will make you happy!

    -kathy | Vodka and Soda

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  34. beautiful. loving yourself is the best thing you can do, not only for you, but also for everyone else you love.

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  35. This is a wonderful post! I absolutely loved reading it. And as i read it, I realised how much I have really grown to love myself too. I'm really proud of the person I am, and I'll be 25 this year too. So much to look forward too. Thanks so much for sharing!

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